Feeling down today..

Hi again.. Met him today to return each of our belongings. It's been a month and a half since we last met. Well, I didn't look at him in the eye nor really say anything. Well, I missed him...

He sent me to my school... Along the way, we talked abt his program after this.. After I got off his car, I sms him to ask him if I could joining him n his friends at all.. After taking my papers, there wasn't any replies from him and I guess he is ignoring my suggestion to join him in JB makan tonight... But well, I didn't expect him to welcome me at all.. as he didn't even ask me to go along in the first place.. sob sob..
Y am I feeling so sad? I wonder.. Y.. sigh.. I'm feeling so down... so useless.. so helpless... I can't help but to go to his friendster to see how many friends he has added.. oh my god... it's 200+ already.. He's still so into it... I guess I shouldn't hope any for anything anymore, should I? ha...