My precious..

Time speeds up like highway after you turn 21. Mine especially, to me.. I have gone through so many relationships and yet, I have not mature after making so many mistakes out of them. I fear failing relationships and therefore, not dare to thread into any that easily.. But I can't seem to hold back my feelings! When I want something, I want it there and then! I'm stubborn too.. But if I love him enough, I become like a melted iron..

Anyway, once sex is given away too easily to a guy, you are never going to be appreciated like "the Precious.." Is that what I think? No, that's not what I think.. But that's what a lot of guys would say. Come on, they are guys.. if you dun trust men's words on themselves, whose can we trust? ONce sex is given away, everything from his side will turn to steel.. I don't want anybody to believe my words.. but I believe everybody else who had sex knows that truth!!!

I hate it.. Is that the only thing you guys are after? Isn't companion what you are after? Not fun n laughter you are after? Of course, not many guys go for "forever" unless forced to commit... By the way, do you have commitment issues? If you have a pet, does that mean you have proved that you can be a committed person? I don't know. I don't really have a pet that I love... But, I do have 2 hamster now.. But I'm not giving them love cos I know they won't love me back.. I really don't think I can communicate with hamster... sigh.. They bite you accidentally sometimes too.. so stupid, right...?

Actually, not only do I have a problem with hamster or other animals maybe, I already have a problem communicating with my MAN... I don't know if it's purely me or is it them also.. Anyway, I'm starting to be confused once again.. And I know, nobody can help me cos I was the one who chose whichever path I stepped into... :(