Forever Lost?

Reading back my old posts make me realise how miserable I have been in the past.. But that does not mean I'm in any way better off.. I'm 29 this year.. I've been ignoring all advices given to me.. I've been ignoring most of the people in my life.. Everything didn't matter then..

What have I learnt after spending so much time and money with the course I took?
One got to put aside all emotions to achieve what we want..
Balance of life wouldn't get me anywhere.. Would it? hahaha...

Peace, what is peace? God.. I need your help.. Forever, I'm lost.. Sigh...